Brianna

One of my recurring projects as a pagan for the past year or so has been taking a Tarot deck, choosing a deity I want to establish a working relationship with, and then using that deck to check in with them in daily readings. I draw 3 cards a day and keep notes on which cards I've seen, and I'm done with that deck when every card has appeared at least once (takes ~4-6 months).

At the moment, I'm working with the Morrígan, and her primary message to me has been, essentially, "Do it scared." The funny part of this though is that she routinely sends me the most dramatic, portentous cards in the deck. I've drawn The Tower six times in as many weeks. 3 of Swords and 5 of Pentacles have made regular appearances.

At first I would get nervous, wondering if she was warning me of some life-altering disaster about to befall me, but I've found if I can see past the surface-level bad associations of the card, there's always a more coherent and more relevant message for me in there (and the disaster I fear never comes). My best understanding of this is that the Great Queen is basically doing exposure therapy on me via Tarot.

Today I delivered my first Fiverr order. It was a sample line edit for someone I'm hopeful will also hire me to edit their full manuscript. Honestly, this came a lot sooner than I expected to; I was prepared to get zero work on Fiverr for months while I built up a reputation through other avenues, but the first order came within less than three weeks of the gigs launching. Hopeful that that's a good sign of what's to come!

As of today, I'm back to writing on Substack.

This post is on the value of animism and reconnection with nature as antidotes to the central problems of the modern world. I feel pretty good about how it came out, and hopefully this is the start of a more sustainable rhythm of writing these essays again after I totally burned myself out on it last year.

https://chickendruid.substack.com/p/returning-to-animism-in-times-of

#animism #collapse